I’m having trouble getting out of the house today  

I’ve read somewhere that blue in your room helps soothe you and give you a proper resting place in your home.

I put my desk outside my door so that way I can have a separate working space.

Perhaps it is too close because my work still haunts me.

Or maybe my lack of action to actually do the work is haunting me.

I’m sitting now in the corner of the protrusion of the closet wall. I lean against my pillow and my light blue sheets are spotted with darker blue butterflies with wings open and closed.

Have you ever noticed that a butterfly flaps their wings and their resting point, when their wings close, it is not in front of the body?

The butterfly does not shade it’s face in a state of hesitation

But opens it’s wings to the space around it.

I don’t know about you, but I’ve been walking around in a cloud of hesitation for a good part of my life. 24 has been a year of change.

Butterflies symbolize new life 

A new life, a new way of staying high in the sky 

Maybe high enough to continue beating post-traumatic depression.

Here’s to a new day, even at 3:16 pm.